Ok I'm trying really hard to deal with some bullshit with an old flame. Same woman who has been plaguing my existence for some time now after a brief fling when My girlfriend and I broke up for a while. I find myself constantly wrestling with the idea of hanging out with her or not. And my will power seems to always pull through, though I feel it getting weaker. Lately, her new thing, is that she likes to text me about this new guy she's seeing. And I'd be lying if I said its not driving me nuts to some degree. I try to handle it to the best of my ability and I do not let her know that it gets to me, but sometimes it does. So tonight she went out with a couple of her girlfriends, and she decides to send me a picture of herself all sexy looking and whatnot. She follows this with a couple of flirty comments like "too bad you can't meet us at the club tonight, I'll let you buy me a drink and we can pretend we are strangers" and shit like that. I don't give in, but fellas, she's lucky that I have to get up early tomorrow or else I'd probably be there now. Point being, I see my will failing me more and more, and I don't really like the way it's going at this point. Tonight if she decided to text me when she got home, and wanted to hang out, I don't know that I would be able to control myself. I almost convinced my cousin to come to the city with me. It was a fleeting thought but it was still a thought. Oh well, I don't sleep but hopefully I won't give in to temptation. I'll have to go to my favorite distraction of video games and hope that gets me by. Just to had to vent because I know if given the chance this night would end pretty bad.