Ok here's the deal....

I wouldn't call this particular girl I'm about to mention a stalker per say, but she was/is definitely obsessed with me. I won't go into too many details unless you guys are dying to here them, if so just ask in a reply and i'll post them. But anyway, she was bordering the downright annoying up until about last week. She is usually pretty calm and in control of things, a really well put together girl. But occasionally she would go into these crying fits to me over the phone, completely out of her character and tell me all about her feelings for me, and at times actually get mad at me for having a girlfriend and not making time to spend with her. its not even like im trying to avoid her because she started off as a really good friend of mine, its just that graduate school, two jobs, a girlfriend, and other things just don't leave much room for extras.

Well anyway.....

She has brought to my attention recently that she started seeing some guy. Now gentlemen, you would logically think that this would make me happy, maybe she would be out of my hair for a while. Well yes this is the case, but no... i'm not particularly happy. At first I was slightly jealous but I figured that was just an ego thing. I could get over it right? WRONG. the jealousy went away some what, but it was almost like I am craving to be stalked. What the fuck is wrong with me. I think I just need the attention. Or maybe I just needed to vent about it, because I'm feeling a little better now that I;m getting it off my chest. but it was like a weird friggen thing.

Let me spin it for you real quick....

Last night the stalker text me and told me to come over to hang out. Now of course i declined giving her some lame excuse. I did consider going over though but I thought better of it, serviced myself, and went to sleep. So my curiousness got the better of me like it usually does and today after she text me too bad you couldn't hang out last night, I said yea that was too bad, who was hanging out any way... and she replied X, Y, and Z.... now X and Y were females, but Z my friends, Z was this boy that she's been seeing and It was like a bomb was detonated on my ego. I thought to myself "the balls on this chick to invite me over when this guy was over as well" and I thought immediately that she was just trying to play games... like if I went over, she would see how jealous I might be and get a wee bit satisfaction out of it.

Am I going crazy or over reacting? or is this a normal response to "losing a stalker?"

She has been talking to me less which in a way has helped me deal with hiding her from my girlfriend even though we were friends i still felt like i was doing something wrong. This guilt could possibly be gone now, so what the hell am I missing?

I also suspect another crazy breakdown for her is coming soon. but that's a different story for a different day. It's late and I'm tired and rambling, and need to try to wake up for work on time tomorrow, which is in 4 hours so isn't happening.

WOW... ok, I have several things I wanna say here, so I'm gonna try to organize it best I can.

1) It's NOT weird to feel depressed/jealous because it's not the craziness that you miss, it's the feelings of being needed or wanted. Lets face it, when you're in a long term relationship you tend to loose that spark that makes things exciting, you get into a routine (rut) and everything looses it's vibrance. (Kinda like the Pink Floyd lyrics "day after day, love turns grey....and night after night, we pretend it's alright) Anyway, even though this girl was driving you nuts, she was providing you with that feeling of excitement which our girlfriends do not provide us with, in short, she made you feel attractive, which now that she's stopped or slowed it down, the fantasy is ending for you, lets not forget that the chase is sometimes more fun than the prize.

2) Again, knowing what I do about the situation, she was TOTALLY trying to make you jealous, girls do crazy things like that, in her mind she probably tries to justify it by establishing that you two are still friends, but as a wise man once said "It's funny how they always wanna be friends after they rip your guts out." Deep down she knew that you wouldn't wanna be around the guy, but she did it for exactly that reason

3) EXPECT AN EMINENT MELTDOWN. You didn't play into her hand, and the cooler you played it, the more insane the explosion will be. Here's my forcast, it may not happen immediatly, but at some point in the near future she's gonna realize that it didn't make you jelous, nor will it make you jealous...here's where she see's this guy for what he is (And again knowing what I know....he's probably a deuche) she'll break it off and then BOOM: Tough Actin' Tinactin....she's on the phone in full blown emo rant.